two weeks before

not so naive to admit
suddenly finding myself in the chase
a place where i did not anticipate
to find my thoughts running
in your direction
landing on your side
closer to winning
the emotions that shouldn't have been involved

so i run before i'm defeated
trying to hide from the contradictions
that i extract from
my actions
your words
my thoughts
your letters
my intent
your motivation
my resistance
your insistance
my surrender
your gain

please end it right now
i can't tackle the complications
that always occur in these situations
please end it right now