i need to do what i know i need to do
the usual race to the finish line
running to the part i play best
the present acceptance
contradicting the prolonged situation
what won't happen in this race
dragging, stretching misleading
where does it get me me me
knew
we can't comprehend, didn't deliberate, wouldn't want
says my potentially misguided interpretation
bad enough to make the sacrifice
right from my perspective
what i think i want what want is but don't know what want was
lost in confusion
due to a blury forsight of
a hard fall into persecution
pulled back pushed forward and back again

when
it's now.